From your question and carries skepticism, forgive me already. It feels like someone very much disappointed you in love, and now you are resisting such external circumstances as much as possible. But I believe. My girlfriend taught me to enjoy life, and she left. But now I know where you can drown your sadness - She left - in terms of death, if that. She didnít leave me or betray me, so I know for sure that true love definitely exists.